Monday, September 15, 2008

Golden Age

Happiness comes wrapped in a frilly white dress accessorized with a veil, a bouquet and a bow on back.
It is almond eyes, glazed with tears of love peering at you from across an antique pulpit.
Happiness is the love that has sealed the marriages of a growing number of my friends and acquaintances. It is the love the will seal many more, now engaged or soon to be. It is the happiness that, for whatever reason, I lost and some other man gained, (and who can blame him?). Happiness, it seems, is just not in the cards for me.

To avoid the obvious temptation I am having to be melancholy and depress everyone, chiefly myself, I will now change the focus. Why is marriage the way to happiness? Sure, having someone is a wonderful thing, but can our happiness not come from something altogether higher? I think that is my case. I won't ponder what, exactly, is in the cards, but I hope it's fantastic. The longer I'm in the post-graduate limbo zone, the more I see myself moving further and further from the American dream. Good thing my kingdom isn't America.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I completely understand how you feel! I have come to realize that my happiness doesn't come from any guy or marriage, but from the relationship that I have with Christ. He is more than able to fill that void that you have sometimes when everyone around you is married and "moving on with their lives" as I like to say. It was a real struggle for me and still is sometimes but I just have to rely on Christ and know that He has greater plans for me than I have for myself! I know that you know all of this but I couldn't not leave a comment!

~Megan T :)